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Saturday, January 26, 2008

im not going to hk anymore. thats 355 bucks thrown away. but it really cannot be helped. i chose a wrong time to go.

im not exactly sad or anything abt not going. coz i sort of prepared myself for it already. it wun be right for me to leave the coutry at a time like this. i guess even if i went, i wun have much fun, knowing my grandma's condition hs deteriorated.

on a brighter note, i had my first lesson yesterday. first time actually riding a bike. though the speeds like 10 km/h. and i had muscle aches today coz of all the pulling and pushing of the bike. prob going to take leave on wed to go my grandma's house in the morning then go for the 2nd lesson plus theory test.

have fun in hk sqms.

jac8:28 PM

Thursday, January 24, 2008

second post of the day.

in case all of of u are wondering, im not working today. my whole company's in hainan for a conference and im not invited to go. so there.

anyway back to my post abt the fate and destiny thing (i am so hating this keyboard. and im so sounding like a stupid bimbo). anyway soo wei li believes in choice. but i think both are also correct. as in there are many beliefs to how our lives work. like religions. though i think the scienciology(goodness, how do u spell it) is seriously out of this world, but ppl still believe it so theres nothing i can say.

im going to sign up at the driving school later on i think. i hope i just dun back out later. its always the moment. when you've passed it, its ok. just piercing your ears. after you've sat down on the chair, chances are u wun back out anymore. but along the way to the shop, the chances of backing out is really high. so along the way i'll probably still be in a diliema (i bet the spelling is wrong) but once i paid up, thats the moment and there, i carn give up anymore. but i heard from my cousins tt motorcycle's really hard to learn. but i'll see how lah. even if i fail it would be a good experience.

i think tt i like to do things which ppl normally dun do. ok not ppl in general, but the ppl around me. i wonder if this is a characteristic of me, or it is some other factor at play. or maybe its just the liking to be different and stand out from the rest? im just not sure. but im sure tt im definitely not an attention seeker. i think it just subconsciously comes to my mind, the urge to do certain things. heh heh. it sounds weird. but anyway, most ppl who see me for the first time think tt im a very good and well behaved girl who follows the rules and stuff. but heh how wrong are they. i remmeber when i first met my hc class, they all thought im a good girl. tt is till they saw my ear holes and dyed hair. lol and their impression of me changed in seconds.

by the way, just not being able to do office jobs just shows how much i carn really follow rules and sit still at the desk for 8 whole hours. i really must find a better job next time. chem engineering , i hope, will not be the typical office jobs, but something like laboratory work. tt, i think, is my idea of a not boring job.

jac10:04 AM

ive never ever looked upon my sister as my role model before, but i think i really should.

firstly, she is very successful. after working for slightly over 7 years, she's managed to rise to become the assistant manager. from a small employer earning close to 2000, she's managed to earn 6000+ now, and headhunted by many companies.

secondly, her fitness level. i just read her blog and in the standard chartered marathon last year, she's managed to clock 5.12 hours for a 42 km run. ok it may not be good for some, but for me, its zai. seriously, who can run a 42km marathon. not many i guess.

hmm i hope she doesnt chance upon my blog though.

jac9:58 AM

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

shit! (oops)

i think im turning into an ah lian or something. what with my tattoo, light coloured hair (havent coloured yet but i bought the dye already and i have a bad feeling abt it), many earholes and my rekinded desire to learn motorcycle. and please do not scream at me yah? i remember so many ppl screaming at me when i said i wanted to learn.

anyway i realised once i set my heart to do something, i will have to do it. like at the end of j1 i was telling myself i must get a tattoo for my 18th birthday. then with all the stress and work from j2, this plan got shoved at the back of my mind. then suddenly out of the blue, the idea came back again at the end of 2007. so i went to do it. it wasnt on impulse ok?

now my motorcycling thing. wanted to learn it at the end of last year, after as. but somehow, so many motorcycle accidents happened during tt time. so again, that thought disappeared. but it just kept coming back. i told myself, if i didnt go the register and learn motorcycling, i'll definitely regret it all my life. besides, life i believe, if all predestined. if it was meant for u to die in a car accident, so be it. no matter how careful u are, if your time is up, its gooodbye. so sometimes just climbing the stairs can kill you. so there's no meaning in saying many ppl die riding motorcycles. though i must agree it does carry some threat there. so dun dissuade me. even if u can, its only temporary. i'll still learn it one day.

work tmr. its damn boring. i carn wait for my term to be over. march10, please come quickly.

jac10:40 PM

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

havent blogged in a long time.

working is really tiring. esp since i have tuition 3 times a week. and have to reach home at unearthly hours of 930 on 2 nights. ok tts not bad but its tiring trying to teach 5 hyper active p2s, and one clueless p6. hmm i sound mean. but its alright coz i like kids. and they're participating actively in class.

yay im going to dye my hair soon again. light golden copper blond or sumthing. hope i dun look weird. my hair colour's getting lighter and lighter. but luckily its not dry or anything.

this week's kind of packed. tomorrow's the only day i will be home early this week. then next week its only work till wed, and the next week, its only work till tues. and the week after, its only 1 or 1.5 days of work, depending if my office is going to have shut down.

but my tuition still continues.

and so is my tiredness.

rah.

jac10:54 PM

Thursday, January 03, 2008

i have a 101 things to do but im just too lazy to do them.

1. cut my nails (yes im too lazy even to cut my nails)
2. pack my cupboard.
3. pack my magazines.
4. pack my bag for tomorrow.
5. choose my working clothes for tomorrow. and iron them.
6. charge my psp. and hp. and mp3.

as you can see, most of the things above do not even require 10 minutes to do. but im just simpy too lazy to get my butt of the chair. i think i shall do everything tomorrow. at least i hope i have time to do 4-6 tomorrow morning.

anyway my one and only pair of heels have died on me yesterday. the left shoe broke cleanly into 2. lets see, ive worn it for grad night, chen hui's birthday celebration, shopping with my mum, out with soo wei li job hunting and to work for abt 10 days. so i have work the $19.90 heels for 14 times. what a rip off. abt $1 per wear. and they werent even comfortable. and to make matters worse, i wore my sis heels to work today and they were even more uncomfortable than my broken heels. somehow i now wish my heels didnt spoil after all. my mum's going to buy a new pair of heel for me for work. i'd better get ued to wearing heels soon. anyway i sound like a stupid lazy whiny bimbo.

hmm im supposed to mke new year resolutions. though its kind of late. so here goes.
i resolve to:

1. stop spending money unnecessarily.
2. study hard when school reopens and beat all the p*cs. (sorry cheryl)
3. stop whining and go to work everyday without complaining abt how i dun feel like waking up. (though i doubt it will ever happen)
4. try to keep in touch with all my good friends.

ok tts abt all. i'd better sleep soon if not i will never be able to achieve point3.

jac10:18 PM